Light globe moment...

This week I had a momentous light globe moment. At 37 I have been struggling with what I want to be when I grow up. I am not sure when I will feel "grown up" but I guess I will know when I get there, or not. Anyway I digress, coaching and counselling. This is my light globe!

I have been unhappy in my current role for sometime, for lots of reasons, and have been looking rather unsuccessfully for something to inspire me! So rather than applying for any more roles that I will not be happy in I have decided to return to study.

In the last six months I have learnt so much about; myself, health, well being, happiness, joy, the present, relaxation, silence, mindfulness, holistic approaches, alternate philosophies ....the list is endless and I have loved every moment of it.

Having studied psychology at university it isn't a huge stretch to think I would enjoy and be good at counselling/coaching, it has just taken me 17 years to work it out. So I look forward to approaching this next stage of education with zest and hopefully the conscientiousness that I lacked first time round.

Over the last few months I have been applying for new jobs. Looking for part time work is extremely hard and I really wasn’t prepared for the rejection that comes when you are not successful.

Having found something in the paper or online that sparks a bit of interest and ticks most of my boxes I sit down and spend time putting together what I think is a good example of why I would be suitable for the position , only to not hear back (ever) or receive an email telling me that unfortunately on this occasion I have been unsuccessful.

I would like to think that I am worthy of a little more than an email. I would like to think that my application had some sort of impact on the audience and that in itself would warrant at least an interview or call? Who am kidding – what I really want is my perfect job to be handed to me on a platter with the exact salary I want with the exact conditions I want.

I have been working with my lovely personal coach Kate who is helping me to identify my key skills and reinvigorate confidence in my own abilities, that I seem to have lost. Maybe when I rediscover this belief in myself I will start applying for the right jobs and putting together applications that shout why I would be perfect!